-aishiteru-

fucking pissed

2008-09-30T18:56:00.001+08:00

this is the 1st time im shouting at her. i dun wish to say why,but im just too tired le.maybe i shall not talk to her anymore,or maybe i should just end this.

long time no blog

2008-09-21T18:41:00.002+08:00

7 days no blog le,cos i really got no mood.1stly is cos of exams,cant imagine that i am still practicing by differentiation while others are doing overall revision for A-Maths le...haiz...

2ndly,is becos of her...we havent been very stable since 2months ago..until now, alot of problems started to arise,until i cant cope with it.一波未平一波又起 ...haiz...i told her if she cannot find those feelings back,it would be good if we end this rlts rather than to continue a loveless relationship...she said it is needless to say...haiz...

anyway watever her decision will be,i wont stop her..if she thinks it will be the best..now thinking about my cousin,same state as me....suddenly i remember a song

依然是朋友by宇恒

情人节的前一天
他离开你身边
却剩下你无止境的想念
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜
你是否知道
我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你，你怎么说
你知道后是不是从此避开我oh～
我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过
那一夜我陪着你
你哭了一整夜
你是否知道
我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你，你怎么说
你知道后是不是从此避开我oh～
我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友

if that really happens,i hope that 我们依然是最好的朋友......

sianed

2008-09-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

recently things didnt go out too well for me.

1st,her birthday didnt turn up so well for me,i understand.it seems like too much understanding is diff to come out with surprises.haiz too bad><.

2nd,should i stop playing table tennis? i do admit tt i am quite into table tennis.since the table was once again brought out in school,i play often,and becos of this,we quarrelled for like 5 times? she said she is worst than a ping pong ball and she hate this sport to the extent she hoped that this was never invented.well,must she be so extreme in doing things?

both of us have totally different mindset,tts why we quarrel non-stop,but its rather impossible for mindset to change.she wanted my attention always,and no matter how much i give is still not enough.i did adjusted my life for her,i totally changed my lifestyle to suit hers,but it seems like its still not enough.

haiz..after reading her blog,i oso dunnoe how i feel.she say she feel tt i dun care and she oso dun wanna care,afterall these problems were caused by our different mindsets..she said she wanna focus on Os and give up this rlts...if she thinks this is best for her,ill comply and respect...the best of the memories will remain in my heart and ill never be able to forget...till the day i step into the cradle...

To you:

watever u want,ill give,just tell me,im prepared.

happy post?

2008-09-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

today at 1st was happy,went ecp with jj,nick,shihui and isabel mdm de church friends to cycle but in the end only the 4 of us cycle.broke my personal record of cycling 29km within 2h 15mins.

wat a happy day right,but someone broke her promise at night,making me sad,we just dun understand each other..nvm i try to settle with her tmr

downtime error><

2008-09-06T17:04:00.002+08:00

hey guys,nver posted for quite awhile,blog downtime lol..

this few days were soooo happy,i am soon gonna be addicted withthe'"photo" game cos of somebody ( i wonder who that person is :P ).anyway yesterday went swimming with her in the morning,the water was sooo cold><. however,it was still fun when we tried doing stunts in the water.my hands at a time became so numb that i could hardly feel it..so scary, and becos of that i got out of the water cos it was just too cold...k i suck><..

after that we went eat breakfast, da baos lol.it was bought at a coffeeshop nearby she introduced and it was so delicious.have one of them with her while playing scissors paper stone on the balancing thingy at the fitness corner..k la we are childish :P

after that she went this fashion to try clothes and bought one top and a bottom and applied member ( bottom and member i blanjah de :P)haha she was very happy and me too:)she then fetched sister and i went home

went home for awhile then went badminton with bork hang and co pte ltd LOL,before that we went jack's place and took taxi to CC cos no time le.after that went to nicholas's house and play PS1 lol,cos really nothing to play...

haha a fun day i had with my darling and friends,so happy,and i am once again happy-going-lucky le:)

yu guo tian qing

2008-08-31T21:27:00.003+08:00

everything is settled le:)

contradiction

2008-08-29T15:14:00.002+08:00

the mood i am having now is a total contradiction from my blog url...im feeling utterly depressed now...many things had happened and i hae lost the ability to solve.im tired...really tired...im not going to make any decisions le

bad hair day

2008-08-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

haiz....today went to cut hair, so disappointed. my nice hair kana cut until like a square head...have cut there so many times before,this time is the worst...wth loh next time i wont go back there again le.remember guys dun go to PROFESSIONAL HAIR STUDIO at cck interchange there cos they arnt professional at all!

today sux

2008-08-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

1st blogging day,by right i should post a happy one,but today really sux.it is not becos of my results for prelim cos i expected it already,it is becos of the people around me.i just dun understand why there is just people who like to BRAG and 'blow trumpet' until i cannot tolerate.his excuse is always saying tt he didnt mean the way i am thinking.now,if someone say BOO immediately when u receive ur exam script and he is facing u,issnt him reffering the BOO to u? common sense will tell u tt it is issnt it?? well i so pei fu him tt he can tell lie without his eyes blinking by denying the fact tt he is laughing at me.result good so wat?does it means tt u canmock at people who get lesser marks than u?i dun do such things to him even though he got a PATHETIC score of 39/100 for his emaths paper 2,wat makes me deserve his mockery? not just so,he is just a irritating bastard tt likes to call others names and 'suan' them due to their results,looks,skills on sports or games.even though he never play tt game before,if u play and u lost,he will say tt u suck and make u look totally like a noob.well,wat kind of f****** right he have to say such things to others if he cant even perform in tt particular game? if u challenge him to tt game to prove him wrong, he will just give excuses to avoid the challenge by saying tt 'i never play before at all not like u' blah blah blah....

by doing this, it only shows tt he is a f****** coward tt like to boast and boast but in fact.his attitude is worst then anyone i seen in my life.he can only speak but not prove with his actions.his egoness is intolerable at all.once he told me he had a girlfriend,i nearly laugh my ass off cos i cannot believe tt someone actually can fall for such a guy like him.maybe i am not very good in character myself,but i dun think i can be worse than him.nvm, school gonna end in about 2 more months,i dun have to endure with such idiots anymore soon.

anyway,other than this,another thing makes me feel tt today sux.another guy was looking for the question paper he lend to me 5 mins ago during the checking of scripts.i tot i remembered returning to him or at least put it near him,however,im not very sure,anyway tt is not the point cos i dun wanna let ppl think im finding excuses to defend myself.well anyway,he found it beside his bag after finding for like 2 mins.upon seeing tt,i "haha" cos after looking for so long,the paper was acutally beside him and it is sort of funny cos of the actions,i dunnoe wat is wrong with him,he screamed at me and push me away for me"haha" at him.well i admit is my fault for just the"haha",but does he need to get so offended? i can swear tt there is not ANY sense of MOCKERY AT ALL in my"haha",but yet he gets so offended and yelled.WTF?! it is in the hall somemore where there are so many people.at 1st i was so pissed i wanted to shout back at him at push him back too,but it was at the hall i dun wanna disgrace myself and i f****** endured every shit he given me by trying to shut his mouth up my admitting everything is my fault.for ur information if u r reading this post,i dun give a f*** even if i offeneded u,cos like u said u dun give a damn,ME TOO! if the both of u think tt i am good to bully,THINK TWICE.i dun mind if ur crack some practical jokes on me or tease me,i can still take it to a certain extent.ur dun see me getting angry when ur drew on my hands last time during chinese lesson rmb? but,if anyone of ur stepped over the line,DUN BLAME ME FOR THROWING TABLES AND CHAIRS AT U.I DUN CARE IF I AM SCOLDED BY TIGER TAN OR SUSPENDED FROM SCHOOL.I MEAN WAT I SAY! look last warning guys,dun go over the line.if u think i am unreasonable, SAY INFRONT OF ME and dun do weird things behind my back if u r a man.

finally unleashed all my unhappiness,if this post offended anyone,im sorry but if u dun like it,i cant do anything about it either,it is just too bad.

Hey all viewers this is my 1st post:)

2008-08-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

hello to those who visit my blog,this is a new blog by me lol.anyway pls support and link me guys:)
the blog will be updated as soon as i can:)